After the Chinese Christian Fellowship kickoff large group for the semester, I’m really feeling anxious and scared. I think the responsibility of being officially on the CCF team just started to hit me.

I love how the leaders at CCF are so confident and talented and genuine. I love how CCF is continuing to focus more and more on bringing different aspects of worship into large group. I love how, more and more, CCF is becoming a place where God is being sought. 

But I feel like a gawky pre-teen dressed in a ridiculous over-sized T-shirt on the first day of school. I feel awkward and inadequate and helpless. My pride and confidence were hurt more than once today, and I know it shouldn’t bother me, but it still does. And I just feel so immature right now.

I don’t think it’s a coincidence that Hilary talked about weakness this past weekend at the Small Group Leaders’ meeting. It’s one thing to say that you’re weak; it’s another to actually be in that position of weakness.

I definitely definitely definitely could use some prayer right now. Please pray that I would be willing to give God praise in spite of (and indeed because of) my weakness, and that God would be glorified in my weakness!